I'm sitting in class, obviously very bored with the lecture, and just thinking about life. Not only am I thinking about life, but I am thinking about a life filled with the presence of God. I am thinking about a christian life. I am thinking about my life.

These past few days, I have really been humbled. I have had one of those "Aha!" moments. Life is worth nothing if we don't have God, our Father and maker of LIFE at our side. Of course, even if we don't know it, want it, or acknowledge it, God is always by our sides. The difference is that we can either ignore it or do something about it. And by doing something about it I don't mean simply going to church on Sundays and Wednesdays, I don't mean just praying before we eat, and I'm not inferring that we just have to say "I'm a Christian," but I am asserting that we must live for Christ, for God.

We must give control over to the Lord. For a while, it has been incredibly difficult for me to do that. I had doubts and I didn't trust. BUT WHAT IS NOT TO TRUST??! He is the father of the universe. He sees all, hears all, knows all. I have been wondering why it is so difficult for people to just give it up and let God. Just LET God do his thing. I realized that it is because we are selfish. We are a selfish race and we want what we thinks makes us happy. Unfortunately, nothing that we think will make us happy on this Earth can actually bring us true happiness and joy. NOTHING. The good part about this is that we can give up everything, but we will end up with more than that. It's hard to comprehend, and I'll admit that I don't know why it works like this with God or even how, but I do know that it is what I want. I do know that it is something that everyone should want, because there is nothing better. Love from another human, all the money in the world, the nicest car, a great education, NOTHING can beat giving all of that up to seek the Lord because he is worth more than anything this Earth has to offer.

He is eternal. "Never will I leave you, never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5 He promises us that. I am so excited to go after him whole-heartedly! I am so excited to see what he can do in my life!